The Nature of Trauma

Writing a book about trauma was never a fantasy of mine, but once undertaken, became more rewarding than I could have ever imagined. None of this would have been possible without my dead friend Elias, and Mary Ennis, who channels this entity of Elias. Both were instrumental in encouraging me to start writing this book and delivering the trauma talks. Mary, being the example of what Elias speaks about, makes things more tangible and clear.   I am in the final throes of this book project and as soon as I have published it, I will add links to the Amazon page where you can get either the printed book or the Kindle version of it.  

Glossary

Introduction

You can't change something that you don't know is present.“This is the piece, or one of the significant pieces, of that expression of being directly in front of each of you to the point in which you can't see it any longer.”(Elias)

Fresh from university I started to work for two years as an intern in a hematologic and oncologic practice. During this time I saw many patients with similar diagnoses and life circumstances. They were more or less healthy people that were sent by their family doctors to clarify some unusual blood values. Those blood values revealed they had either terminal or advanced stage cancer.

What all of them invariably expressed after coming to terms with their cancer was their astonishment that they had not noticed nor had they felt anything about their cancers. At that moment of awareness that their cancers had been present and growing for several months, at least, they wondered how they could possibly have engaged something they had no idea existed.

That you cannot change what you cannot see, and thus are not aware of (in this case cancer) does not start or end with cancer hidden in your body. This is true for everything in our reality, and this book will help you reveal a huge aspect that is hidden, or at best ignored, by most people. That aspect is trauma in its many forms and the many influences that are springing from that trauma.

Most people would frankly express that they do not have any traumatic experiences – or so they think –  and are tempted to ignore any information that is related to trauma and how to reveal it. If you live a happy and successful life and have no traumatic memories, then why should you care about a book that is dealing with trauma?

Here’s why. Bill Marshall, a 76-year-old marathon runner and author of several books dealing with Creating One’s Own Reality. He has been following the Elias Transcripts for over 25 years. Until September of 2020 he reported a healthy body and happy life. He was on no medications, but went to see an Orthopedist for a sore hip he attributed to over 60 years of running. To his great surprise the MRI revealed Stage 4 Metastatic Prostate cancer.

It is fair to say he thought he knew himself and the Elias material quite well. When he contacted me in February 2020 he expressed that he is responsible for his body and for his reality, that he believes he is creating entirely. He was deeply puzzled about his cancer. He had no major traumas he could remember.  He was sure that he generated the cancer and that there was a reason for it, but he was not able to see it.

He did not hide his cancer and the diagnosis, but was sharing that openly on his Facebook page. That was how I became aware of his disease. I had no contact with him except for his posts and was aware that he had written some books that were in some ways related to the Elias material but I had never read any of them. In the next weeks I noticed that he popped into my mind several times. So I engaged the topic in one of my regular Elias sessions and asked him why. Elias expressed that I am aware that I may be helpful to Bill, but he also recommended that he should make the first move and contact me. I forgot about it, and weeks later he actually contacted me and asked for my help.

That was the time when I started to have more trauma sessions with Elias, which I present here in this book in a condensed form. I stripped away anything that is not related to the topic of this book in order to make it easier to assimilate the information that is related to trauma.

After Bill asked for my help, I delved into his energy and evaluated what the real reason for generating the cancer was. What I saw surprised me and I was very reluctant to speak with Bill about it. Instead of offering what I saw, I engaged some audio chats and asked him whether he had listened to some of the first trauma sessions that I shared in the Elias Facebook group. He had not and he expressed that this topic was not really interesting him because he thought that he had had no trauma, since he had no traumatic memory and in his assessment no sign of any trauma in his life.

Well, a bit reluctantly he started to slowly listen and read the trauma sessions and quickly he was able with a little help from my side to reveal more and more influences that he did not see before and that he thought were normal behavior. After opening his own can of worms, he used imagination to point to the first hidden trauma and was able to give the bare bones of what happened to him when he was around seven years old.

Using the Elias trauma sessions, his own imagination and a little help allowed him to unearth some of the many influences that were stemming from that trauma. He then was able to connect to the perpetrator side of being a victim. This is a very hard aspect of realizing that one has experienced trauma in the past. As a victim, most likely many people will feel compassion for you but being a perpetrator is a completely different story.

Elias explains in these sessions how every perpetrator is still a victim until they have addressed to the trauma experienced as a victim. Only then can one  no longer be a victim, start to alter the insidious influences linked to the trauma and stop passing the trauma or influences on to others, often unintentionally.

It was never my intention to delve so deeply into the topic of trauma when I engaged conversations with Elias on a monthly basis in the beginning of 2020. Quickly I realized that the increasing number of clients that started to contact me at that time all had trauma-related influences or attachments. I realized that I was not able to address to the influences as long as the trauma, often hidden inside the clients, were not addressed and resolved first.

So I started to engage conversations with Elias that were dedicated to the topic of trauma. Half of the reason was to better help my clients and the other half was that I was getting curious about what Elias had to say about this topic. With each session, the topic was growing and it was becoming obvious that even more sessions would be required to outline the topic, not to say to cover it entirely.

I learned about the enormous trauma that WW II had generated, not only in people who directly participated in the war, but worldwide. Until this time I was not really aware of that fact and so I started to google and I quickly found several books and articles that were pointing in the same direction. 

Psychoanalytical interviews indicate that the trauma of that time is not only a difficult emotional legacy for those who witnessed or experienced it, and many were dealing with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), but also for their children. Secondary traumatization is currently a topic in books and magazines that is gaining momentum quickly. I am amazed how big this topic actually is and how little the average person is aware of that unseen and unrecognized suffering. And we do not even speak about the tremendous influences that are stemming from this on a personal and societal level.

After the Second World War, the horrors of that time were banished behind a wall of silence not only in Germany but in my opinion, worldwide. In the present time, the taboo is easing off, this dark chapter is being disclosed. There are several surveys showing how the experiences have been passed on to the next generations. Some of the children have concrete knowledge of what had happened to their mother or father; most do not know, but are as affected as those children who do have that knowledge.

So in engaging conversation with Elias I became aware of the unfortune cycle that any trauma starts. Those who experience trauma and have not addressed to it express behaviors like an inability to cope with negative emotions – grief, anger, weakness, guilt, shame –personally, but they pass them on to their children. This creates “secondary traumatization” in a rather unintentional manner as many victims continue to express later in their lives actions that can be similar to what they themselves have experienced.

This other side of the coin of being a victim is acting in some ways as a perpetrator later. This is what Elias means with the second step. After acknowledging and addressing to the victim side, you turn your attention to the other side of the coin and start addressing in the second step: your own behavior as a perpetrator. That might be even more difficult for most people than addressing to the victim side.

However, trauma and the influences of it do not end in the expressions of certain behaviors in people. It is generating diseases like cancer, auto immune diseases and many other manifestations that are not so easy to see. In the conversations with Elias, we touch on a lot of that but it is far from being complete. So this book might be a door and the first step in revealing hidden traumas and hidden influences. It also may help you to understand other people and why they are doing certain things better. It is not meant to excuse violence or aggression in any way, but to ease the way to understanding why certain people do express such behavior and see them as victims of their own trauma that turned them into perpetrators.
 

Elias answer when I asked him how he would describe what we have covered so far in relation to trauma.

ELIAS: I would say that what we have been engaging is a series of conversations addressing to the subject of trauma in many, many different forms, and what the causes of them are, what the manifestations of them are, what the effects are, what the influences are, and expressing more of a definition of trauma more realistically in relation to people that explains how the victim and the perpetrator are interchangeable, and how you can’t necessarily express one or the other in relation to the subject of trauma.

 

I would also say that we have been exploring and defining trauma in relation to other expressions that are not necessarily human, and that trauma is something that can be experienced by any being. That it isn’t something that is unique to humans, but that humans are generally the instruments of trauma – not always, but generally, because there are some expressions of trauma that are not necessarily generated by humans directly. That doesn’t mean that some of it isn’t indirectly expressed by them, but there are also different expressions of trauma that aren’t linked to humans objectively at all.

 

In this, I would say that our conversations have been significantly directed at being informative to aid people in not only addressing to past traumas, or what you think of as post-trauma, but also present traumas, and in addition to that, these conversations will be instrumental in helping people to move in a direction of soothing the trauma that may be expressed or inflicted upon other beings that are not human, such as animals and plants, for they also engage trauma. Anything that you identify as living beings can experience trauma.

Report of a client that shared his story to be added in the book:

It is a very difficult situation if we agree to work with each other and the client allows me to tap into his energy and I see a trauma that he is not aware of at all. When this happens what I do is I say nothing to the client and I will look in my next ASC session again. I will try to look from another POV and I will more clearly pay attention to my own energy to not delude the information with my own expectations and enery. I will also evaluate whether the clients is ready to address this trauma. That is so important because engaging the trauma and the individual is not ready can be traumatic in itself.

Report from J.:

Let me start by talking about what I was feeling before connecting with Scotty about this. I was going through some constipation and just feeling generally uncomfortable. And I also had a feeling as though there was something wrong in a way in the background that I just didn't know how to address to. Like my symptoms just didn't really have an explanation that was obvious.

So then when I started reading about these, these hidden traumas and also making the connection that I had no memory, when I was very little I wondered if I did have a trauma or two and after that, I reached out and Scotty confirmed that I did have a few traumas and like long story short, once, Scotty started to work on these I started to notice changes. I was feeling more comfortable, and I was more comfortable for me to share, more comfortable for me to be in situations that would normally trigger me more.

Just to go back a little bit. Another thing that I noticed, or that I was making a connection with was, I had a couple experiences where something would happen. And I would just shake, or my emotional response and physical response was exaggerated like beyond what would be reasonable. And so that was just, that's something else to sort of add to, to the whole, the whole history of these traumas. I also had cancer when I was around 16 or 17 it was a stage three Hodgkin and it was connected to my throat area, and a suppression of me sharing, and that had to do with my trauma which I realize now.

So I'm going to just engage my imagination a little bit and go back into this trauma. When I was around the age of two and a half I think my dad had to watch me because my mum went away on a course, they're both school teachers and she was doing some extra credits and special education and so my dad was home with me. Apparently I got this from my dad, that there was one of our neighbors, a young girl, and she was around, maybe 11 or 12. She approached dad, and asked to watch me.

And I also worked with another facilitator to experience, re-experienced this memory, and so I'm going to share what I came up with. I was concerned a little bit and I told the other facilitator that I thought it was mostly, you know, part of my imagination but she confirmed that most of it was not, and, and I definitely had an emotional connection with it so this is what I remember. I remember the girl whose name was Amanda coming to pick me up and she would take me to her house in a little stroller. And I remember that the reason she wanted to watch me was because she was being raped by her dad, her and her sister, and that she was thinking that I would be a nice distraction, and, you know, maybe, maybe that wouldn't happen when I was around. So, even though I was young I did pick up on that energy from her and felt like I was there to protect her.

And to fast forward a little bit to an experience of me in perhaps it was like a living room area, and I was in a walker, and I could hear the girls being raped or they were screaming and in terror. And the energy was so traumatic for me even though I couldn't see it, that I left my body and I witnessed their dad doing it to them in a room. From a perspective, like close to the ceiling. And I was watching that and so that, that was, was very traumatic. And then afterwards, the other piece I connected was Amanda. The older of the two sisters. I should also add that he would threatened, I believe he was threatening Amanda that he would hurt, hurt her sister if she ever said anything or kill her sister, anyhow.

She then inherited this behavior from her dad. And then, I mean I had love for her, and she, she was now doing this to me. So, the imagery I got was me being changed on like a counter or change table, and she was raping me, but also covering my mouth, so that I couldn't communicate I couldn't scream.During my session with the other facilitator that was a very emotional part for me when I recalled that. She told me it was okay to give voice, and I was screaming for my mommy.

And I don't have the emotional charge now so I know that's been moved, but there's a little bit there but anyhow, so that's, I was being suppressed there, my voice and that carried into other aspects like you know just being in my crib at night, while my parents were in the adjacent room, it'd be crying for my mom and they were sleep training me, so no one would come. That was, you know, that was traumatic as well and so I overlaid this experience on many, many other aspects of my life. You know eventually it's turning into, you know, the cancer and even now I have a lump on my, on my throats all related to this. And, yeah, so I mean, it's better like it's, you know, I'm feeling more comfortable. I mean, here I am sharing this all. I really wish other people that want to start addressing to trauma strength through this. Scotty just seems like a loving father in some ways, so I hope this is helpful in some ways, this is at least part of my story and my journey.